Rough Month

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So this has been a rough month for me.  On August 20, my grandma passed away.  It was unexpected so I did not a chance to prepare myself for it.  At her funeral, the only thing that kept me going was holding the hand of my 4 yr old niece Ella. I didn’t think she would hold it for the entire time but she did.  She even switched hands with me at one point so she could reach for her doll with the other hand.

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I can’t show Ella without showing my other niece-6 yr old Eva.  Here she is as a cat lady 🙂

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To top it off,  my dad has been in the hospital.  He was in congestive heart failure and was retaining a lot of water. He ended up losing about 65 lbs in roughly 10 days and he came home yesterday.  He is weak but doing better.

On the good news side,  so far I have lost 70.5 lbs since May 1.  I realize that is only about 10 lbs in the last month, so it has definitely slowed down but I will take it! It’s been really hard this month to eat right.. I spent several days helping to clean out Grandma’s apartment and then helping my mom get things ready in her house for some of Grandma’s furniture.  Plus I had to visit my dad at the hospital.  On those days,  I would eat fast food. I tried to be good and get a subway salad or something.  But I did break down and have Chinese food with my mom.  At the funeral, we had a luncheon at the church afterwards.  Food was provided and it was everything I shouldn’t eat.  Yummy things like spaghetti, mac and cheese, pasta salad and the best snickerdoodle cookies!.  I did my best to eat very little of each thing I wanted!

I’ve settled back into a routine now and cooking at home more but next friday, my work is having the annual company picnic.  Lunch is provided along with fair food that includes elephant ears, french fries, corn on the cob and donuts.  I have been craving an elephant ear.  I didn’t get one last year at the picnic because the lines were too long and I couldn’t stand for a long time.  This year I will be able to walk around more and definitely stand in that line for an elephant ear.  So that is going to be my cheat day for the week.  I am already salivating for the elephant ear…..

mmmm.. elephant ear

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I was thinking about a few years ago when I lost 50 lbs. No one commented on my weight loss.  It seemed like no one noticed.  However now, I have people who don’t even know my name approaching me in the hallway at work.  So I searched and I found an old pic from when I did a breast cancer walk at Ohio State University.  This was in September 2013 and I was only 9 lbs more than I am right now.  However I do not look it.  I think I look a lot bigger.  The only difference that I am doing now compared to then is the kind of exercise.  The water aerobics and  Aqua Zumba seem to be taking the weight off and shaping me.  I measured myself at the end of August and I have lost 8 inches from my chest, 8 inches from my waist and 8 inches from my hips.  So it is a very uniform loss. (pic below-on the left 3 years ago.  On the right 3 days ago)

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Anyway. I am still working hard.  I would like to lose at least another 10 lbs by my 25 year high school reunion on Oct 1 and I would like to lose 100 lbs by the end of the year!  Let’s do this!

 

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